“You are my best friend, my shoulder to lean on, the one person I know I can count on, you’re the love of my life, you’re my one and only, you’re my everything..”

When you can genuinely feel this way to a person, and it is reciprocal, I guess you have found the greatest thing life can offer you..

I am never good with goodbyes. When I first moved to Melb, I didn’t really say bye to my close friends and family. I said I will be back.

Now I’m here in Melb and I don’t want to go back. The city has captured my heart and I am attached to it. Wait let me rephrase. It’s not really the city; it’s more the life that I am currently living in Melb. My friends, studies, lifestyle..

But graduation is coming, and I know I have to say goodbye to all these eventually. I might be able to stay in Melb because I get a job. But I might also need to go home if I’m not successful. Either way I will need to move on to a different lifestyle. Life as an office worker is different from that of a student. My friends will change, some of them will not stay here too.

Gah.. my life is about to change soon.

Can I let go of my old one? Can I hold on to my dear friends? Can I say goodbye and move on?

I don’t want to.. I want my friends with me. I want my loved ones near me.. I don’t want to let go..

Keep thinking life as I knew it is starting to end. The symptoms are quite clear. I no longer live in my huge master bedroom apartment, where there are many space to store all the junk i hv. Which also means I no longer live near to Levina, my highschool friend who has been a companion and help for me all this time in Melbourne. Feel sad that I can’t just press the elevator and pop up in her room upstairs..

In less than 4 months I will graduate (assuming everything goes well..), and if I’m not successful with applications then I would have to leave Melbourne =(

I don’t want to leave Melbourne. Not now. I think my heart will be shattered even more if I leave Melbourne with my current condition.
But then can I be successful with applications? *breathes heavily*

wish me luck! >_

Trust is like Virginity. Lose it once & u’ll never get it back.