if there is an embodiment of pathetic.. that is me.

i made my commitment, and it is for my own good, and i didn’t keep it..

now i’m falling fast, and falling hard..

i know i’ll hit the ground soon, and it will hurt me so bad..

let’s just hope it won’t do as much damage as 28 july 2005 did to me..

Sometimes it feels like I don’t know what’s going on with myself. It’s like I have all these thoughts inside my head, and all these feelings, but I can’t pull the logical strings to connect them all.

It’s usually Jeha who excellently figure out things happening in me that I don’t even realize, and Jbob who puts logic to all my jumbled up feelings.

and now Budi is doing it for me. He pulls the logical strings and make all things clearer for me. Like how he told me it might seem like I love a guy, but it could be just because I wanted a boyfriend. Or how I just instantly dislike some people the first time we met, because I value people from their social interraction while he values people from their intelligence. LOLs.

I guess I’m a confused person then o.O