A very unanticipated incident happened today.

Dearest Beverly, or popularly known as "Bevi" has gone missing. She apparently squeezed through the narrow space between the besi2 in my pager rumah n then just went out and hasnt been seen ever since. To my dad’s thinking, she might have been taken away by someone, or else she would’ve been back by now.

*fyi Bevi is my mini poodle with short curly black fur, and she is VERY cute n cuddly…

I can’t believe it actually happened. I mean, no more Bevi. I can’t really get that thought inside my head. It still feels like Bevi is down stairs waiting for me to come and pat her and play around with her… aduh.

i feel so terrible.. mana gw lagi denger lagu mellow2 patah hati pula… missing beverly very very much..!!! huiiixxx… Rasanya kayak putus, masih sangat sayang tapi udah ga bisa sama-sama lagi.. huee… pengen nangis… Bevi come bacckkk… mommy misses youuuu………………. so so muuuchhh !!!

janji ga akan digangguin lagii,,, aku ga ngelus2 kamu pake kaki lagiii,, tiap hari pasti diajakin mainn,,, ga akan dicuekin lagi,,,,,, uhuuhuhuhuuuu….. we’ve been together for 10 years,, dont go noww,,, hiixxxx…..

bevi pulang yah…………..

A friend named NEYSA (see sa i credited all these to you hehe) inspired me with an inspring thought..

"its the process that matters"

My previous post said that all the process are just process that needs to end someday, and that makes all the perjuangan during the process pointless.

But then again, Sasa implies that the experiences you have during those process are what life is actually about. It’s not just about trying to attain a goal, and then after all the goals are reached, life is done and accomplished. True, but what really makes life valuable is the experiences you experienced during those process of life.

Come to think of it, i’d have to say she’s right. What do you cherish most during ur lifetime? I’d say its the memories, and that memories came from experiences. For me its memories of being with my girlfriends and highschool madness funtimes, during extra working hours trying to make school art fest successful, studying ampe ga tidur for great great math results (yg pada akhirnya cuman dapet 6 juga.. hehe…), being with an ex altho it ends dreadfully but the sweet memories still lingers, trying so hard to get into uni and being awarded greatly for that,, all those sweet sweet memories..

thanks to Sasa for making me not so pessimistic on life in just a matter of seconds. hwhehee hebat kau sa ;P

Apa ya.. nulis pk Indo aja deh, my english is somehow deteriorating soalnya.

I realize lately my life has become so routine, it suffocates me.

eh jadi nulis inggris ah bodo ah campur sari aja seru..

There’s not much excitement anymore like when i was in the beginning of living life, when i was 10 or 12 or 15 and dreamt about the life i want to live.

Rutinitas is stressful, kynya semua pada akhirnya akan berputar-putar saja di tempat. Life goes on in a circle. I was a kid, then became a teenager, then enters adulthood, n then i become a mother who bore a kid, and that kid will endure the cycle i went on.

There’s nothing exciting about that. I’ll go to school, i’ll graduate, enter university, work for some time, and then all those process stops and i give life to a lifeform who’s gonna live that same cycle of life.

Sepertinya, semua perjuangan yg gw lewati toh pada akhirnya tidak akan membawa gw kemana2, karena pada akhirnya juga semua process itu akan berhenti ketika gw mati. Whats the point of living all those process now if in the end it will stop?

It’s not innovative, not creative, and in a way, very very boring.

I need to get out of all those routines

Ayo kawan-kawan, mari bernyanyi bersama!

tu, wa, ga, pat… !

lyrics:

otak ku duluuu tak beginiii

tapi kini tak pintar lagiii

lalu temankuu

bilang padakuu

dari duluuu juga sudah bgituuu

sukuur nyadarrr

(kejam kau saaa kejam kauuu)

uuuu….

pam pam pam cuap

pam pam

cuap

pam pam

cuap cuap cuap

pam pam pam pam !

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