23 September 2009

September 30th, 2009
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Tram Inspectors today! It’s like being caught cheating. I was sitting right in front of someone who got caught without a ticket, and even I felt tense and guilty just listening to him defend himself. Apparently he’s just from 2 blocks up (should’ve said one!), and ‘forgot’ to validate his ticket. He was just 1 stop shy from Bourke St, and when asked where he was going he said Bourke St! That was solid proof of fare evasion! What a shame, he could’ve said something else :(

boy meets girl

September 14th, 2009
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Girl: I’m gonna ask you questions and you have to tell me the answers, okay?

Boy: *grumbles* … okay…. *grumbles some more*

Girl: Okay, tell me who is Marc Jacobs..?

Boy: err.. isn’t he that singer?

Girl: err.. noo.. that’s the singer Marc Antony !

Boy: Oh I know! Isn’t he that guy from the Bible?

Girl: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

Boy: What, Jacob with the multicolored coat! He is in the Bible!

Girl continues laughing…

*true story*

WHATS UP WITH GAY MAN PRETENDING TO BE STRAIGHT?

August 21st, 2009
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come on just stop all this drama! if you’re attracted to guys, and not girls, your gay! stop pretending, stop saying ur bisexual bcos its totally different!

it’s really simple, you like A, you don’t like B. If you go out with B when u actually like A, you’re:

1. lying to B

2. lying to yourself

3. closing out a happier future romantic possibilities with A!

4. you’re a liar, a player, and you’re playing with another person’s heart!!!!!!!!!

WHY NOT BE TRUE TO URSELF and STOP THE DRAMA and SAVE EVERYONE FROM HEARTACHES????

DUMBASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

myself

August 15th, 2009
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After all this time, I finally realised what I want to do. I might have bits of clues back in my younger days, but has just trully found the full picture the last few weeks. Talking to my dad really put the puzzle pieces together in a neat frame. It is a clear picture of what I want in my life. This provided me with a goal to pursue. All I need now is to stay in my track, and not get distracted. Put my ducks in a row, and get them done fast without wasting time. One thing wrong about me is I get all things right in my head, but never really action my thoughts. This I have to change.

the right time

July 10th, 2009
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timing IS important. there’s a lot of learning and growing up that a person needs to do, before she/he can be in a full-fledged relationship (what i’d like to call a ‘real’ relationship).

so far in my life i’ve encountered those who would otherwise be perfect, except for some under-development in several areas of their lives/personality/motivations/vision of life/etc etc.

i guess that’s why couples who’ve broken up in the past can meet again at present time, and things start heating up again. also the reason why he seemed to be just the perfect guy, but you just can’t seem to progress further in the relationship. reason for the first case was because the guy is now developed, while for the second one it’s because he is still under-developed at the moment.

and it’s not just him/her/your partner, it’s also you. everything could be so perfect, but there’s something inside you that is still unsure about things. something about you that still needs answers and some soul searching. in this case it means you’re the one not ready/under-developed.

Asians!

July 1st, 2009
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Okay, so I’ve been watching a lot of youtube videos at the expense of my good night sleep… I’ve noted 2 things about Asians as a result. Asians born in Western countries to be exact. Okay, the countries being Australia & the States to narrow it down more.

Before we start tho, Disclaimer: what you’re about to read is my opinion, and we all know how opinions are.. It’s based on a single-person’s perspective (although I have, as a reasonable person, tried to include as many different perspective as possible). And because it is an opinion, it won’t be able to please everybody. It will only appeal to those whose opinion is similar to mine. So if you get offended easily, and not that curious to read a long blog post, the top right corner has an “x” button you can click.

Besides, this observation is from YOUTUBE. youtube everybody, hello: the internet. So it definitely does not capture all the true conditions of the real asian population.

Anyway.. At the risk of sounding FOBy, here’s my observation:

1. Asians not born in their parent’s (or grandparent’s, or great great grandparent’s) country of origin, tend to see the “asia” as not part of their own. It’s like looking at some “foreign” stuff. Which is a shame, because you’re looking at things that should be your own, as if it was somebody else’s.

(I actually have a lot more on this topic that I want to write about, but I forgot in the midst of clicking through youtube videos.. anyway, let’s move on to point 2).

2. Asian GIRLS not born in the motherland tend to not appreciate how cute and handsome and awesome Asian boys are! Of course not the fobby skinny distorted-face ones. Totaly understandable that skinny and ugly are not attractive. So is being fobby, as it shows innability to assimilate into a culture (which is a crucial survival skill).

But if the guy is okay (if not good-looking and smart and all the awesomeness you can ask for), why still aspire to be with a white guy? Why still think white guys are better, and can take you up the “class” i.e. the society rank? Some of the girls in the youtube videos go so far as dissing the asian guys as being: short, small (i’ve got to lol on this one tho.. hehe), Un - Athletic, not hairy enough (!), etc etc.

I guess the above can pass as “taste”, as in different girls have different taste. But look at the asian guys in the youtube videos! they are yumminess in a laptop screen! They are great guys with great looks, great body, and I’m sure great brains too (video was filmed by Berkeley students). Why with these great asian guys, asian girls still think asian guys as inferior to white guys?

My theory is that these girls were born and raised in an environment where most people are white. Their human survival instinct give to a desire to assimilate, and be white. Naturally they see and desire the white guys too.

This argument is flawed of course. It doesn’t explain why asian girls born and raised in asian countries also desire white men. White male Expats in ASEAN countries must know what I mean. But still, at least these girls appreciate and desire asian males more than their westernized counterparts do.

Such a shame isn’t it? It’s such a waste that good guys like these are not put to good use. hehe. Think about the many enjoyable romantic rice dinners, anime & korean drama movie nights, and rice rocket ride-around-town these girls are missing out.

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Oh and NON-asians, if you count how many asian friends you have.. then it actually shows how not “asian-friendly” you are.. it shows how having an asian friend is like a “prize” to you.. counting them is like counting how many prized possessions you’ve collected so far.. that’s jst not right because, in a true sense, friends are there to be your friend, not your “prize”d possessions or collections..

okie, thats it for now .. if you got offended, I’ve warned that you would.

=)

and another one….

June 29th, 2009
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it is what you “earn” that matters.. at our age we may not know all the “answers”, but at least we’ve got the right question”

and I found another thing!

June 29th, 2009
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hey,

I guess life is just full of undiscovered things for me!

So.. I just realized.. All this time I was thinking “why take commerce?”

There’s nothing very …um… *can’t find the word*… humanitarian, noble, green peace, peace corp, kinda thing..

Anw, yeah, I have always thought “why do I take commerce?”

I’m not helping anyone, I’m not producing anything for the greater good of the humanity. There’s really no direct tangible result when you talk about commerce.

Like if you talk about doing Architecture or Design, then you know at least there will be some piece of art produced. A table or maybe a pretty dress, or some advertisement in a billboard or something.

But people are still doing commerce, and no one is making it a big fuss like I do.. So I thought, hmm, maybe as a person I need to “get” the meaning of what I’m creating to be satisfied with life.

Anw.. that was random, ciao for now!

Things I found out today =)

June 28th, 2009
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1. That this song is such a beautiful song and really touches my heart

Glasgow Love Theme (Love Actually OST)

2. That I would like Stevie Wonder’s “Isn’t She Lovely” playing on my wedding day as I walk down the isle…

3. that I need someone who understands my heart, and know how to handle its insecurities and intricacies (and I’ve found him).

4. that this quiz result on facebook is so true!

The Cusp of Sensitivity - Aquarius/Pisces Cusp February 16-22

You are a success orientated person who gives top priority to your career. You are a fighter and have a tough aggressive exterior but inside you are sensitive. You struggle to be open, honest and accepting with your partners and do not like to allow yourself to be vulnerable. You want to be liked and are afraid to get hurt. Close friendships are important to you and help you ease the feeling of being isolated and misunderstood. You need time to be alone and regenerate. Expressing your care, concern and sympathy is necessary to you as are love and passion. Strengths: Success Orientated – Concerned – Caring Weaknesses: Insecure – Pessimistic – Isolated .

the one below is not mine, but still! so true!

The Week of Dancers and Dreamers - Pisces 3 March 11-18

Pisces_profile

You are strongly philosophical and often spend time contemplating the intricacies of human though and the wonders of the universe. You are visionary in thought, but have a intensely practical side and often well developed technical or scientific skills. You enjoy helping other solve their problems and take an active hand in everything that is going on around you. Some people view you as meddling, mistrusting and resent your good intentions. You have the power to make the impossible possible, unbelievable believable. You could have a touch of clairvoyance or telepathy. You can be viewed as strange and peculiar, but you have an air of self importance. To an unusual degree your life is ruled by fate. You love comfort and know how to make your surroundings comfortable for yourself and others. You seem to be independent but have a tendency to foster dependencies in others. You have a need to be needed. You are a good listener, empathetic but are unstable and unrealistic in your romantic relationships and often get involved with the wrong person. Strengths: Philosophical – Helpful – Miracle Working Weaknesses: Ineffectual – Impermanent – Dependency Fostering

5. that this might be true…

When your significant others are being controlling and possessive, don’t think it’s because they love you a lot. It’s because they love themselves too much to even consider your needs and feelings

6. that I still have a lot to learn about the world

LIVE LIFE!

June 22nd, 2009
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It’s been too long since I first realized my days of uni and student life is coming to an end.

I know in exactly 2.25 months I will no longer be living in a CBD apartment with Kania (no more late night chats, snacks, and dvd marathon!). My days will not consist of going to uni back and forth, and trying to keep up with class readings and tute works. They were all annoying when I had to go through them everyday, but now when I have to let go it felt like I actually love them more than I ever know :P
So I am sad that my life as I knew it is going to end..

It’s only natural right, because who likes change? It’s all so cozy and comfortable already. You’re used to the pattern and safety of having a patterned life — no deviations, nothing strange, life is going smoothly. all good in da hood baby.

But we all know nothing can last forever; it’s only inevitable that change comes.

What I actually need to do now is… instead of moping about my soon-will-be-gone past life, I should start looking for new future and a new life. I need to think about what I’m going to do next in my life. Get a job? Go back Indo? Stay in Aus? Apply PR? err.. Continue study? do CFA? be a Lazzy Bum and hang around the house all day? do nothing and just wait for PR, then apply for job or figure out other things to do? err…..

I don’t know yet.. and that depresses me. But whenever I am depressed, talking to a particular friend who always seem to be full of plans and know where she is heading is such a positive influence. She gives me hope that my life is not a hopeless, depressing one; but instead it is a fun cheerful zesty one like hers. It’s a life full of hopes and possibilities, and I just need to choose which path I wanna go. No need to wallow in sadness over my past life and how I could’ve done it better thus provide myself with a better future now..

..Yep I’ve always been haunted by the fact I will not be a student anymore and not having a job yet.. And I blame this at how I’ve been living my life for the past 2 years. Makes me want to go back all the way to the past and fix things up..

ah if only I can go back to re-do and re-experience everything.. Then I surely will make sure I enjoy myself and all things around me more, so Im not regretting it when I realized (like now) that they are all over, and the resulting future due to my actions is not as good.

Surely I can fix my grades that went downhill starting from 2nd year uni.. If I can turn back time I won’t procrastinate the way I did back then; I won’t underestimate and will study more.. So many things I wanna do if I can go back in time…

But no use of looking back and wishing so hard to turn back time. No use, not gonna happen, might as well use my energy for something else.

Must keep in mind what June said and how she deals with the changes in her life.. Must remind self that the future is bright, and there are still possibilities other than staying in Aus and getting a good job here, or continuing study as honors student..

..Must make sure the experience that I’ve had from the moment my grades started going downhill be a lesson for me.

Must remind self that it is a lesson and a chance in getting to know myself better — on the effectiveness and the efficiency of my working style, on the correct study technique that is most suitable for me, on the importance of persistence, diligence, a drive for success, motivation, and a vision/goal, on the importance of being myself and taking control of my own life! Not letting people decide what I do and how I do it, not being a pushover who let other people do my life the way it will benefit them! My life should benefit me in the end!

For now, I need to do my best for the rest of my exams so there’s no regrets later. Then I can start thinking what to do in my life, what is the next path to take after life as a student.. maybe I can do a postgrad degree? or I can go back Indo and work. Or maybe work somewhere else! Lots of possibilities, lots of opportunities; they are available and I only need to seek for them. My life is not over because I’m no longer a uni student and not have a job waiting at the finish line..!

Okay enough rambling for now, must start studying and bring myself up from the mess I’ve made. Can’t retrospectively correct, might as well fix the future starting now!

okay then cheerios for now~